HBD – An Exclusive.

12th January.

L’audace, l’audace et toujours l’audace!

Yes, this is an exclusive story and if I re-read it and I still don’t like it by the end of the day, I am definately pulling it down. Anyway, look who was born today! Yay!

Birthdays do not bring anything new to the table of life you can say. Apart from an opportunity to grab some alcohol, weed and cake with friends of course then dance ourselves crazy to psychotic music. What a style to usher in a ‘plus one’ and tell ourselves, ‘looks like I made it, let’s do this.’

Anniversaries, independence days, wedding days, birthdays; first days of anything important are always special to us, to companies, businesses, countries and any other entities celebrating the dawn of anything significant. They remind us of when and where it all started, how far we’ve journeyed and looking at the next chapter that this day presents with hope, determination and audacity. Birthdays are a new start- a fresh beginning and a time to pursue new endavours with new goals. Looking at my own journey, the two decades or so that I have been around, all I can do is smile. So many battles fought, I won some I lost some but the all made me stronger; looking into the future, I know there are so many others I am yet to face. So many mistakes I have made, I have learnt from most of them if not all and guess what, I am not done making them yet.

As I head deeper into my twenties, I go with a clearer view of who I am to a chapter of my life that will bring forth new and exciting events in all things life, relationship-wise, career-wise and all things life I still haven’t done the bigger chunk of my twenties so I am just getting geared up for fun and adventure. They say that our twenties are a time to make as many mistakes as possible and learn so; somebody give me one big rungu. I wanna smash some car windows, get arrested and tell the cops, ‘ can’t help it, hello, am in my twenties.’ πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Anyhoo, I think the biggest stumbling block for me has been my personal mental health struggles; Facing the soul-sucking monster that they call depression. I am not going to dwell much on that now because I am definately going to do a whole ass post on that once it’s all done and dusted. So far I have sat down with 7 different psychologists, 4 psychiatrists; 11 therapists in total and looks like I made it. I really do believe that that has been one of my most important classes in the school of life. I have been to the deepest pits of despair, agony and emptiness. I have tried to ‘carry the weight of the world but I only have two hands.’ I have lived through one day and just hoped I didn’t have to live and face a next but what kept me here and gave me the willpower to bulldoze my way through it all is the sincere cry of people who genuinely care. Through it all I have learnt to appreciate this beautiful gift called life. I know I said it’s a pointless existence but hey! It a blessing not a curse.

All these experiences have entirely changed my perception of life and the world, about people and the society. I have learnt to manage to see atleast some light even in the darkest of days. Yaaaas! You’ve remembered it well; Yesterday is not today and today is not tommorrow. I have learnt to always try and see the good in people. Live with an open mind. To respect other people’s choices and who they are. They have their own reasons why they are who they are, why they do what they do. We all have come from different political, social-economic and religious backgrounds. We’ve all had different life experiences which have shaped the story we are living today. So unless someone has walked you down their life journey, who are you to judge.

We are here to collect amazing memories and we can’t make them by ourselves. We’ve got to get out of the bitter barn and play in the hay. Everyone has their own unique personalities and obviously, perception of life. We need to find the right people who we complement or supplement each other and live our best lives while we are here.

I go into my next 365 full of dreams and goals and the zeal to fulfill them. Some are realistic and can, will materialise. Some are of course too big and ambigous; probably unachievable. They are super good for my fantasies nonetheless. Imagination rules the world, they say. Imma keep those BHAGS (Big, Hairy, Audacious Goals).

I hope that this day sets the pace to a happy life ahead. I am not having alcohol today as I am trying to keep my sanity and my liver too, but CHEERS, really. My age is merely the number of years the world has been enjoying me.

Happy 23AD (23Amboga Doug… wow! that was geniusπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚).



2 thoughts on “HBD – An Exclusive.

  1. Yeah. Alcohol doesn’t need to usher you to another 365 years of your life. my school of thought (not guided by philosophy)tells me we should begin a new year with sobber minds as we make prospects and BHANG.

    Nice peace, what caught my attention is the number of therapists, psychologists, and psychiatric you’ve invested in in the journey to achieve mental health. Mahn, shit’s encouraging.

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    1. Hey someone,
      Yeah. Aside from the alcohol part just don’t you ever give up on yourself. Nobody should ever. Keep moving. I now even find psychology intriguing and interesting. Considering taking my undergrad in Psychology.

      You are just bent. Not broken.


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